DNA Freya part 3
It was very kindhearted and thoughtful of Freya to give this as a gift. It is so easy to switch off from listening to what our loved ones are saying. I’m pleased that I’ve been able to share with Freya my own story and insecurities and how I have to manage the vulnerable feelings that sometimes show up from time to time during periods of uncertainty. How easily we forget to nurture our pains with kindness.
Seeing another’s point of view whilst knowing your own position is an ongoing practice. I’ve shared many conversations regarding race and heritage with my daughter and I’m not always sure I’m forwarding the correct/right or best response. So the best I can do is speak of my own experiences as they are close and try at the same time to allow for Freya’s too, as they are different. To tell our children that we know it all feels disingenuous. I’ve been around longer so my experiences and knowledge is obviously broader. But there are sometimes when I honestly have to admit that I do not know. My faith in my own spiritual practice and response to life may be 31 years older but I’m as unsure as the next person of the uncertainty of certain things. I find it interesting that so many people teach otherwise.
Being curious and asking questions has led me to plan a journey to travel through parts of the middle passage for a historic exploration that I hope to share with others and support my practice as an artist. I’m wishing to undress some of the emotions that have been boxed and shelved. Feelings that do not wish to be hidden, ignored or anaesthetised. This is sometimes difficult for me as I tend to choose defence and protection rather than allow how I really feel to be expressed. And as much as the warrior in me is called for from time, a flight or fight may not be the right call for action. But that fear to be vulnerable is becoming less and less, where I choose art, dance, exercise laughter, and good company to express and share. Doing artwork with vulnerable people has also taught be the benefits of nurturing an intimate space.
Here I’m left to consider the multifaceted nature of people and their cultures, heritage and personal life experiences and how that influences the way our minds operate.
I’m currently in Jamaica with Freya looking at my father’s birthplace, it’s history, chilling out and visiting family. Also researching and taking notes along the way. It is 05.20 here in JA. I want to post this blog before the day begins, as there will be little opportunity to do it later. I posted a part 1 and part 2 previous. To read those, please click on links below.
Bye for now.
To read part 1 and 2 of DNA travels: